i've cared so much that i get hurt :(

I thought you could change and grow up but i was wrong . You could never change . I often thought that we could be like we were before but there was never even before . you were always mean . No matter how good you tried to become you still have an agenda benith it . You were never sincere . Always does something foolish . Backstabbing is one of your  "BEST QUALITY " . why are you so mean ? you were there during my ups and downs but you were also there manipulating others to hate me . what do you hope to gain ? who am i actually to you ? a friend or an enemy ? (FRENEMY MAYBE ) what have i done to you that makes you hate me so much . i thought we were friends , BEST FRIENDS , but ENEMY is the status you choose i just play the game :)
 just to let you know i once cared for you as a friend , y do u think i always helped you ? CAUSE I CARE DUMMY !!! but now i don't know if u ever cross my mind .

:)  and i am glad i have a lot of friends and they are all better than u are , pftttt 

It's all about F (FEAR , FEARLESS , FAMOUS) :D

Dear my honourable blog readers and followers . well if there is anyone just any ONE of you who would spend your precious time to read my blog and waste it easily , i wanna say THANK YOU :) *i'm touched and i love you , hugs and kisses all the way .

first of all i want to admit that i am not famous :( i used to think that BLOG was made  for the people who is famous and wanted to be closed with their fans , but that is all BULLSHIT ! too sad i just realize that . Today i want to take the opportunity to say that i'm sorry for making my followers regret that they had been following me for months but there has been no new post . hehe .



           I have this dream , maybe it's a dream of every girl or perhaps just me ;) I am grateful with what i had , never complaint but deep down i always wanted to be famous . Just like DAN HUMPHREY in GOSSIP GIL People might say " haha you just won't be famous , you can go and live your so called fantasy , don't bother telling us " but i never got the chance to tell anybody not even a single soul . WHY ? because i doubt that i won't be one , i'm afraid that PEOPLE are right and i won't accomplish my dream and would be humiliated by others . my problem was MYSELF . I care about what people think of me , i bother what people are talking about me WHICH IS WRONG !

         I must admit i'm not FEARLESS , all this time i had been living in fear , but now not anymore. i'm not gonna let fear ruin my life .  i realize my biggest fear was BOYS . it might sound hilarious and stupid but it's true .  i had always lose to boys , they always disappoint me no matter who they are to me , whether a friend or a crush . they are all the same . i've grown up , im 16 now . i've learned and experienced a lot that makes me STRONGER . i now have the power to defeat THEM . It wasn't that hard after all .

Dear boys you guys are getting no where near me , my experience makes me HATE YOU !!!