i've cared so much that i get hurt :(

I thought you could change and grow up but i was wrong . You could never change . I often thought that we could be like we were before but there was never even before . you were always mean . No matter how good you tried to become you still have an agenda benith it . You were never sincere . Always does something foolish . Backstabbing is one of your  "BEST QUALITY " . why are you so mean ? you were there during my ups and downs but you were also there manipulating others to hate me . what do you hope to gain ? who am i actually to you ? a friend or an enemy ? (FRENEMY MAYBE ) what have i done to you that makes you hate me so much . i thought we were friends , BEST FRIENDS , but ENEMY is the status you choose i just play the game :)
 just to let you know i once cared for you as a friend , y do u think i always helped you ? CAUSE I CARE DUMMY !!! but now i don't know if u ever cross my mind .

:)  and i am glad i have a lot of friends and they are all better than u are , pftttt 

It's all about F (FEAR , FEARLESS , FAMOUS) :D

Dear my honourable blog readers and followers . well if there is anyone just any ONE of you who would spend your precious time to read my blog and waste it easily , i wanna say THANK YOU :) *i'm touched and i love you , hugs and kisses all the way .

first of all i want to admit that i am not famous :( i used to think that BLOG was made  for the people who is famous and wanted to be closed with their fans , but that is all BULLSHIT ! too sad i just realize that . Today i want to take the opportunity to say that i'm sorry for making my followers regret that they had been following me for months but there has been no new post . hehe .



           I have this dream , maybe it's a dream of every girl or perhaps just me ;) I am grateful with what i had , never complaint but deep down i always wanted to be famous . Just like DAN HUMPHREY in GOSSIP GIL People might say " haha you just won't be famous , you can go and live your so called fantasy , don't bother telling us " but i never got the chance to tell anybody not even a single soul . WHY ? because i doubt that i won't be one , i'm afraid that PEOPLE are right and i won't accomplish my dream and would be humiliated by others . my problem was MYSELF . I care about what people think of me , i bother what people are talking about me WHICH IS WRONG !

         I must admit i'm not FEARLESS , all this time i had been living in fear , but now not anymore. i'm not gonna let fear ruin my life .  i realize my biggest fear was BOYS . it might sound hilarious and stupid but it's true .  i had always lose to boys , they always disappoint me no matter who they are to me , whether a friend or a crush . they are all the same . i've grown up , im 16 now . i've learned and experienced a lot that makes me STRONGER . i now have the power to defeat THEM . It wasn't that hard after all .

Dear boys you guys are getting no where near me , my experience makes me HATE YOU !!! 

       

why you got to be so mean gaga ?

Hey look what i found !!!!

Assalamualaikum ,

Today as i was cleaning my room or shall i say THE BIGGEST RUBBISH BIN , well actually it was two days instead of today . well whatever like you ever care about what i said . ok back to the topic WHAT I FOUND TODAY  .  It is actually nothing much . IT is  priceless , useless , nothing but a piece of paper . But to me it's something that use to be special but now i'm trying to forget it but it keeps coming back . u don't understand it don't you ? im actually talking about my feelings towards someone that i think there's no future in us and im trying to let go of that love but i just can't . that love i had  towards him is like a boomerang , it will come back to me no matter how far i throw it . if only my love towards him is like a football that i could pass it to somebody else .

oh this is the content of the paper that i found :

 is there still hope ? most people told me to choose you instead of B or C . How is that possible ?i could only dream of you every day and night but in reality i couldn't even talk to you , cause if i do i'm afraid you would ignore me . my heart hurts whenever i think of you , and lately B is always on my mind . i can't describe how much i regret pushing him away and most importantly his love .If only i was mature enough to think about the consequences and accept his love , perhaps all of this wouldn't have happen . love hurts whether it's right or wrong . No matter how hard i tried to forget you i can't deny that you own my heart . your smile my biggest weakness . when you smile i can't see anything else except you , my heart stop pumping blood to my body , my eyes stop blinking , my nerve receptors are not working like it usually does , my whole body stops and stares for a while cause boy you're amazing just the way you are  . a friend once said "choose the person who loves you more than you love them " . in this situation i think i love you more , and B loves me more . Does that mean i have to choose B ? what if i'm unhappy being with B ? what about C ? 

message >    important decisions in life is never easy . you could only decide once . that's why you need to think wisely or else you would regret it for the rest of your life (well not exactly forever ) .

hey if u are wondering " who the hell is A , B, C ? " YOU SHOULD READ THE NOTE ON MY FACEBOOK . this is like the sequel

           

having a wonderful day with my SWEETHEARTS

 HYE ,

       
           oh well today i went to Ampang hilir to jog with Nadia zarra and Puteriiiiii . Actually Nadiah s pun nak ikut tp last minute cancel. :( but it was still AWESOME :D . For the first time lintas jalan besar dengan basikal . lol . oh at first we planed to go there by 6.30 tp delayed sampai pukul 7.30 .

     oh mase sampai sana kitorang jog satu round lps tu hujan . so kite berlindung dkt pondok lps tu bila hujan da x de kitorang pegi main dkt playground . then , hujan balik .so kitorang pergi makan sbb lapar . Nadia & Put makan nasi lemak . me ? i eat pau kaya n 2 biji karipap . makanan die okey la jugak . 

so damn freaking cute :)

   

  Tadi masa dkt tmn tu kitorang jumpa mat salleh ni anak dye SUMPAH COMEL ! cute sgt sgt sgt . bapak die pun hensem no wonder la anak perfect .

love you guys

 Nadia zarra & Puteri thanks tau teman pg jogging hari ni  :D love you guys soo much 

 

sorry muka put x nmpk sgt :)

tgn kami . ;D

xoxo , zetty idris

OMG man's body are AWESOME !!!

look at that :O

     I wanted to post this yesterday but i didn't because i am so tired . YESTERDAY  i hang out with my amazing NITA and SYAF . we went to viva to watch CAPTAIN AMERICA . it was so freaking awesome . believe it or not syaf cried watching that movie . well just believe it . nita slept during the movie . haha i don't know whether she understand the movie but i do know that she look cute when she was asleep . oh , and her hair smells nice . i love nita's hair !!!!!

         oh viva is amazing no pavi kids and most importantly no annoying schoolmates , yeay ! n it is huge .

ZETTY IDRIS

Hell0_o my name is zetty idris ,keep that in mind , carved it in your heart , make it your tattoo . Actually i had 3 blogs before but i forgot all the password . i hope i won't 4get this one :\ .  well the reason i created this blog is as the same as why everyone did  it  .which i myself don't know why but it looks interesting since everyone has one and i don't want to be called CORNY (cause i'm not ) . DON'T JUDGE ME ! i hate people who judge ME . you can judge others but not me or you'll regret it 4 the rest of your life  muahahhahahhaha . ihavenoideawhattowritesoGTFO !:D


xoxo , zetty :P

I LOVE YOU ......... and i'll never delete u from my heart

I fell in love with you
and then you broke my heart,
I knew never to love a player,
I was wrong from the start...
Loving you was like ripping out my heart.
I refused to look around me and see
all the terrible things you were doing to me,
I was in my own world and I didn't see all the trouble you were,
I was deeply in love.
Now that's all ruined, you see,
All because you played me,
You had looks, you had charm,
You were slick with your words,
You knew just what to say.
I was foolish to think
we were made for each other,
I always prayed you
would never love another,
I wanted us to always be with each other.
Loving a player is one of the
hardest things ever,
I have learned a lot
from my experiences with you,
My heart was broken into two.
I know now, as I look back on my past,
Dating a player will never last,
So, in my future I'll watch what I do,
I won't date anymore players,
But I'll still always love you.

the reasons why i love JUSTIN BIEBER

HAILO ,

          3rd post ? lol baru 3rd . biasa la bdak baru belajar btw as you can see the picture of justin bieber and the tittle has justin bieber's name of course it's about him btw " JGN TERUS TUTUP BLOG NI SEBELUM MEMBACA " TAHULAH SEMUA DA MELUAT BENCI DKT DIE TAPI LISTEN FIRST  . 

             senanyekan dulu masa mula2 knl jb en , first impression en " BAPAK JAMBU BUDAK NI , AKU INGAT PEREMPUAN MANA NYANYI LAGU 1 TIME NI " then da tau umur die " DEHELL , LBH TUA DRPD AKU RUPENYE , nmpk cam lagi muda j bkn sbb awet muda tapi CHILDISH gle suara da la x matang " meluat doe masa mula2 knl die .

               tapi en bak kata org dalam hati ad taman , belum knl maka x cinta and ape kejadah peribahasa yg berlambak tu en yg korg slalu baca dlm novel cinta dan jarang sekali ada dalam buku politik en . rasanye btol r gak .

               there is this one boy that i at first treated him as a friend and never thought that i would fall in love with him . NEVER mu tau !!! then came this one day that i realize he is such a gentleman and before that he is the one who introduce me to JUSTIN BIEBER  . he said he's a fan of him so it takes time for me to like bieber .

                and since then i've been admiring bieber and few years after that he hooked up with someone and i was mad and sad at first but then i realize that  Maybe part of loving is learning to let go. so i let him go and hope he is happy with his choice but i still can't let him go . i love him so much that i can't stop loving him (hehehehe bodohkan mcm xde laki lain j dlm dunia ni ." kumbang bukan seekor , bunga bukan sekuntum " )

              Love can sometimes be magic. But magic can sometimes... just be an illusion. :( 

pathetic kan  ? oh well that's just me . back to the topic , since i can't forget him i replace justin bieber and always thought that bieber was him (hahahah cecambod )

           and now since jb da buat benda yg menyakitkan hati which he KUTUK ISLAM  . it's harder for me to forget him :'( how am i suppose to forget the person i fell in loved years ago but i was the only feeling it ? hey heart can you just fall in love with other guy ? u don't have to be loyal . in this world no one's loyal ! 

 

da la malas la nk berjiwang2 kat sini Haznita hassan x suke  .

JB SUCKS !  

 COMEL PULA DIE BEGINI

Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a teardrop.

xoxo , zetty idris :'(

best friend or lying bitch :\

Heyhihello ,

Syaf can you tell this to your  cousin ,  this is what I think she should do . although I am not good in giving advice but based on my experience I think I am though enough to go through everything 

                  I’ve been to the situation where one whole school hates me  . it hurts a lot . I cried every night thinking about it further more I have no one to share my problems . (at least u have syaf ) I didn’t  tell my mum about it at all because I’m afraid that my mum would fight with my friends or their mothers , you know how protective mothers are  but that wasn’t a great idea . it hurts even more .

             My  woeful story started when I fought with my bestfriend for the first time in 4 years . because I loved her so much I didn’t bother telling people about what she had done to them or talk about them ,I just keep it to myself and thought that we would be friends again . but I was wrong about her . ever since I knew her I never thought that she would do this to me .

          I always thought that if I had her as a friend I won’t need anybody else because of how special I think  she is . unfortunately  , she is a backstabber  . she’s been spreading rumors about  me and it is all bad perspective about me that makes everyone hates me and believe in her because she’s MISS GOODY TWO SHOES and im the naughtiest devil  . I loved her , in a matter of fact I’ve always protected her , thinking that it’s my responsibility to do so as a payback for being my closest friend   .

            She told our friend what I’ve been condemn about what I am not satisfied with their attitude or what they did to me . even though it’s a long time ago but still she bring it up . i was pissed off and i wanted to speak up for myself so i decided to talk to one of the BITCH  whom i thought i could trust and being honest but i was wrong again . i told her that i am not satisfied with how people treated me and told her about my friend . the next day she slander me and i notice that she did that because she is also being hated by her friends and to get new friends she must first betray me . isn't that a bitch ?

      a few days later i don't feel comfortable with the situation that im in and decided to stop all of this at once . i called my ex - best friend and apologized . she said that she forgive me and we have a talk about 5 minute and i thought that it was over . so i felt happy walking to school . when i arrived school they all LAUGH AT ME ! isn't that childish ? ergh they said i was week and i was really really sad that my ex- best friend just stood there and do nothing to make me feel better after what she did she didn't feel guilty .

          on that day i am so depressed  that i took the RAPID kl BUS instead of my school van because they all treated me like dirt . the day before when i was about to enter the school van they pushed me until i fell and they said that the van is full by putting their bags and stuffs on the seat then i ran away because i was embarrassed .then , when i get out from the rapid kl bus , when im about to pass by i got hit by a van . and there was my school mate watching me instead of helping . i was so upset that i didn't care about myself and ran home quickly .

          after a few days i went back to school . i thought that my friend would regret or maybe show some care but i guess that's only a fantasy  . they said "oh hidup lagi , ingatkan dah  MATI " wow isn't that a GREAT friend  ?

    there is more about what had happen but it would take a lot of time and you guys might feel bored so im just gonna teel you the moral of the story .

•  first of all " TO THE WORLD YOU MAY BE JUST ONE PERSON BUT TO ONE PERSON YOU MAY BE THE WORLD " you just have to find the right friend . :)
• Fake is the latest trend , and everyone seems to be in style . ( they r stupid that's y they did that )
• sometimes your best friend are enemies in disguise so u got to be careful 
• some of them thinks that you really2 need them and have no one else that's why they did what they did to make you suffer  that's y u got to show them that they are not needed and show them that u r tough enough to go thru this challenge .
• if you don't know me , don't judge me , nobody ever force you to love me  .they always give an excuse that they had to be patience with our attitude but they never actually understand us even though we had been friends for such a long time  . 
• i'd rather have an enemy who says that they hate me , than to keep a "FRIEND" whose mission is to put me down secretly .

this is what i could think of right now , there is more but i am tired :P . hope this would help and do remember B E S T F R I E N D is  10 letters but so is L Y I N G B I T C H  .

WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND . so all the pain you caused me will come back to you someday  .

                                                                                             
                                                                  xoxo , zetty idris :D